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my shad0w's the only one that walkks beside me; my shall0w heart's the 0nly thingg that's beatingg; s0metimes i wish some0ne out therewill findd me; ` till thenn i walkk alonee.
20030719 juz came back from 2nd last training...got an invitation for ROD.so sweet of them to make such a cute thing for us.but i realli dun1 to leave.ncc has been in my life for 4 whole yrs...never thought i'll hafta leave so soon..will miss the part Cs so much..haiz. we played so much todae...had so much fun and dionne 'the saviour of all fights' ahah...so cute la they all...trying to let go of them slowly now..afterall 1 dae they will hafta take over the company and be the great ncos tt they can be.when the NDP girls told us they might not be able to turn up for the last training.i was veri upset.even when its my last training i cant haf all my cadets coming for training.wanted to cry but decided not..showing them my tears will not help but make things worst.i noe how they feel towards us ncos but we don't know how to express to them how we exactly feel towards them.i guess its the kind of in silence but knowing kinda thing.actualli suppose to meet the NDP girls early todae b4 training.but didnt cos i dun 1 to have that deeper emotional attachment to them...it gng to b hard to let go.may sound emotional but i realli dun 1 to feel even worst on ROD.hope they understand.
To dearest Part Cs(if ani1 of u actualli sees this.):although i never had like long talks or conversations with u all but i realli love u all.maybe to some i might b an nco tt doesnt deserve to be respected,or not a gd example to be followed but i'm trying realli hard to give u all the best tt i can.u all are taking over soon,i can see tt u all have the ability to bring the company back to gold.the potential is there in u and to search for in each and every1 of u.find it and show every1 wad u all are made of and do us proud.i've alwaes been proud of u all although theres times of disappointment but every1 makes mistakes,we ncos too but dun b afraid to make mistakes and learn from the experience.u will definately gain alot from it like we have.i've seen many faces tt changed alot and i'm glad that we actualli made it to turn u all into great leaders.most important thing is that rank is not wads important but the leadership and passion for ncc. theres a great difference between a usm/asm w/o the leadership and passion for ncc and a sgt with the great passion for this cca and the leadership skills.u all might not understand wad i'm saying but i juz want to say that rank is nt important but the love for ncc.wish you all gd luck for the future and when problems come your way juz remember that u all are alwaes the great cadets i have that i'm veri proud of. s0metimes i wished s0me0ne out there will findd me; ``____x Saturday, July 19, 2003
20030714 140702...its been a year now.how fast time passes and we dont realise.went to visit her...miss her lots.miss the large hand gestures she have when talking and that loud voice talking all the time behind during maths.the great time spend.regreted nt playing the first move to resolve our misunderstandings.wasted so much time which could make our friendship stronger.regrets are all i have.remembering last yr at the same dae.planning to eat at pizza hut.and celebrate but it juz had to happen.many things had changed since den but some how without any planning we went for pizza hut todae.how weird things can be in life.went hm after tt...nt gng for mass...afriad i'll break into tears.wanted so much to visit her place..see her room.but its too late in the nite..cant go.wonder if wong's att...selfish i might seem to expect him to remain single but...haiz.y didnt he protect her from tt oncoming bus?if he did this wouldnt happen.i'm nt blaming him cos i noe marion wldn't want me to.i guess i shld try to let things go its way and go on with life with the great memories of marion in mind...life is still beautiful.as she is to me. s0metimes i wished s0me0ne out there will findd me; ``____x Monday, July 14, 2003
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